The UK was wonderful.
It’s amazing to me how different the lifestyle is just an ocean skip away. It’s also amazing how calm I felt while on the farm in Wales and, I believe, I was anxiety/stress free. I spent 10 days building fires [more like watching fires be built], juicing, tea-ing, drying clothes on the aga stove [with the accent I thought they were saying arga but only now did google correct me], taking fresh-air walks, reading poetry by Simon, enjoying fresh farm bacon and custard.
The list goes on.
The first night as I was lying in bed in the old farmhouse, I peeked out the window only to see complete darkness and the sky lit up with thousands of tiny stars. It was there that my heart sank and, for me, the journey of my unspoken friendship came full circle. I believed, no I knew, at that moment, that we met for a reason and here it became clear to me.
Years ago now, I made this post about my friend [now one of my best friends]. It was an unlikely friendship, but here we are years later and I began to see the bigger picture. This special friend met her husband while working in Tiffany’s, he had come in to buy a silver platter as a thank you gift for some friends he was staying with while visiting New York, he was British. They met and love ensued, she moved to London with him and they had their little boy. I’m sure there was a night where she lie in bed, staring out the window, at the British stars just like me. While I gazed my mind wandered to this thought. She was young when she met him, probably my same age that I am now, in love with a Brit, and now here I am in love with one too. I find it no coincidence that her dying husband arrived back from his very last trip to London on the same exact plane that Konk and I departed on to London, only one hour later. A trip, for us, that would commence a life, on the same exact plane where an end-of-life trip was coming to a close.
I once wrote, “why would she want to be friends with me?” As I journeyed to London this holiday season I felt the answer deep within my heart.
It’s funny how the answers come, sometimes. It’s funny how we write, speak, or feel questions not knowing if or when the answers will come. In a lot of ways, this friend has taught me some of the most meaningful lessons on friendship–those lessons are part of the answer too.
These last couple of days it has been hard to hear of her “Brit’s” rapid decline, almost heartbreaking, my heart aches to think of her London story coming to a close. She said to me the other day, I wish I was in the UK. It’s so great, the best.
I thought, yes, you’re right, it is the best. I thought, let’s go there together. Let’s make another London memory together. It won’t be the the close of the book, only the chapter. Could we?
Some questions, well, you know.
a whit who has thought a lot.