Well, today I set out on my daily run. It was 6, plenty late enough for the massive heat wave to have died down, I was running within my range of miles, and I was making about average pace (for me). But I kept looking down at my Atticus bracelet, I kept telling him to be strong, and I kept telling myself to run harder and faster than I had previously–for him.
I couldn’t do it, I got to about mile 2.5 and my body just was aching in pain (it normally isn’t like this). I began to walk, and I thought about Atticus the entire 1 mile of it.
I got home thinking my lag was from a lack of calories, so I immediately loaded up on some tuna and broccoli and then I went straight to the computer. I thought, he’s gone–and he was. His sweet little soul returned to Heavenly Father today and as I stared at the picture of him that was posted, in his little baseball digs, I thought of little e and my immense love for him. I can’t imagine the grief the Hansen family must be feeling this day, but I am thankful for the knowledge that Atti will now be serving a higher purpose and watching down on all of us in love.
I am also thankful to know that he will always be a strength to me. It’s amazing how one little boy and a blog could touch my life so deeply. Thank you Atticus. Little e put it nicely this morning as we we’re leaving for the pool. I asked him if he had his Atticus bracelet on, with wide eyes he looked up and said very matter-of-factly, “Yep, got Atticus right here! He’s going to the pool with us today!” Who knows, maybe he did.
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